I thought that when I came back from exchange, I would have lots of time to reflect and write a memorial of my exchange life. What a mistake it was that I didn't just upload all my photos as and when they came in and write more posts about my travels and meetings. I must must must do that one day, no matter how late it is.
Normal and daily life activities have caught up with me faster than I expected. This is the 1st time I'd made any New Year's resolution and it was not to use the words, "sian" and "cui" too much. I know that I'm truly back in Singapore and SMU when I'm going out till 12am almost everyday, feeling like I have no time to do anything and going to school on a Sunday to do projects! However, I'm glad to report that my spirits are still high and I'm keeping a positive and optimistic attitude. Although there are some doubts, fears, bad feelings and stress building up, all of which had been almost entirely non existent during the last 4 months, I know that it will all eventually be okay.
In the meanwhile, meeting up with old friends is definitely a comforting treat. Maybe it takes being away for a certain length of time in order to ascertain to whom you feel a compelling need to talk to. And to whom you don't. And at last, although I'm constantly wondering if I am living some fading, far away dream, if ever it was remotely true, I choose to believe that it will not wane all too soon.
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